Sunday, June 17, 2007

Juhu Beach

Was supposed to get up at 445 am as had a trek plan on Sunday, But kept on talking to my roommate till I realized it was already 4am, so that plan was canceled. 

At 4am I slept as if there was no tomorrow, a content sleep. I got up at 9am, had not planned anything.

My roommate suggested going to a movie Pirates of the Caribbean was running in a theater nearby Went for it, enjoyed it 

Later that day, went to Juhu beach I have been to this beach since last 6 years, but today it seemed the most beautiful place I have ever seen in Mumbai

Windy, high waves, high tide, a little drizzle Oh god it was mind-blowing I eyes kept following big waves, I love watching the sea, 

The multiple, simultaneously waves of all sizes are like the chaos in our heart, or like thoughts in our mind.

Yesterday the sea was indifferent & moody.
Initially, I felt it was angry, wild, and rough. 
I sat there for almost 40 minutes, gazing the waves,They were beautiful 

Sea was not angry, but young and enthusiastic like a small kid I just closed my eyes and together I and sea said some prayer as if we were celebrating some ritual. I felt no one could listen to what we were talking to each other. Our giggle became laughter and I thanked God for blessing me. I opened my eyes as the seawater had touched me, Prayer was complete, So was the ritual

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Old Man and his last Journey

Final Journey of that old man had already started in his mind
This time he knew, he was going to win
He had to climb till the end

He could not sleep throughout the night
He got up early, got dressed up and waited for the sun to bloom
This time he chose to walk alone, though no one in his family supported this idea

Feeling of restlessness arose and he thought of starting before dusk
He lifted his already packed sack (bag) on his shoulders
These shoulders had become somehow weak now
But now his willpower

He saw his 5 year old granddaughter sleeping on the bed
He felt content, blessed and weak at same time

But he decided to continue, as there were still some stones left unturned in his life
He reached local bus stop. Paid for the bus ticket and settled down on the window seat

Enthusiastic and restless like a 16 year old boy
He didn't want to miss any moment of this journey
So he clicked pictures of possibly all things he could see from the window
He didn't have a wink of sleep in his bus travel of 15 hrs

He got down from the bus , hired a small room in a motel
Took bath had dinner and a started the final journey

It was dark - in fact night had just started
But now no one could stop this OLD child

He packed some biscuits, chips, fruits and water in his bag,
He hanged his camera in his neck and started walking through the dense jungle

This was the same place which was just behind his school
And all his school life he wanted to explore his place
Neither he nor his friends have ever dared to,
Walk through that dense jungle to make to that mountain top.
Every time they bunked school to climb the mountain
they would stop themselves from entering the jungle as
they have heard many scary stories about the place

After finishing the school he had almost everyday dreamed of climbing that mountain tip
Neither that urge left him nor his dreams

BUT today
Today was a different day,
Today he was neither scared of any animal eating him nor of any GHOST gulping him down
Today there was no fear
No even the fear of death

He started his journey
Any whatever things he could see with help of his torch light looked beautiful to him
He kept walking,
He kept walking

He reached to a small river, it was early morning and he removed his clothes
Had bath and had his breakfast

He lied down had a small nap
And again made himself fresh for the rest journey

He kept walking till he reached mountain base
Now he was at the final stage of his dream

He felt very elated and very tired
He again lied down, used his sack as pillow
Though he felt tired he could not close his eyes
Through-out the night he kept gazing at the peak
He wanted to start climbing, but by now his legs had given up
So the idea of resting was right one

Early morning he again started his journey
Journey towards his dream
He kept climbing; his legs were almost dead now
But the endpoint kept him moving
He gave up idea of eating anything and wanted to reach before night
May be 20 kms more he calculated in his mind,
Slowly the distance narrowed to 10 kms
Then 5, 3, 2

Finally the last few steps
he made it
he reached to the top
he shouted and laughed and shouted and laughed and shouted and laughed
he kissed the lifeless mountain again and again and when the night was at its peak he slept with a content heart , and a smile on his face

At his home, in the morning granddaughter saw his grandpa lifeless on bed with a tear rolling down his cheeks
She kissed him and cried and saw the packed sack just at the right corner of room

path of true faith

I cried till all tears dried away 
When no more tears left to cry – I collected shattered pieces of my soul to rebuilt myself 

I have done this so many times – But this time I have learned one big lesson we are born to rebuilt, 

every time I create I know I have created it for destruction The tussle started between god and me None of us gave up I kept building 

 He kept destroying and teaching me to become more patients and stronger Today I thank god for showing me the path of true faith

Thursday, June 7, 2007

things i wanna do before i die

Hey Girish, Your scrap actually made me think about dreams or things I like to do That was a positive thought That made me to sink into myself and to evolve with answers In my post I don’t crib about my life But I feel that there is life beyond horizons And we all need to live to explore that I am a coward; I don’t have courage to explore things alone That is why most of the time I beg people to join me There are many things which I want to do before I die 

 1. I want to spend the entire one month in Himalaya, reading walking gazing, and closing my eyes so that I can capture the moments for lifetime. 

2. Don’t know about the world but want to see and feel INDIA [ amaranth , jaipur , kerala , shimla , assam , Ladakh and my home town Kashmir] 

3. I want to cry endlessly in moms lap to make for all the pains I have given her as an arrogant girl and want to tell her I love and miss her beyond words 

4. I want to tell a list of people that they don’t deserve what they are, 

5. I want to spend a night at the terrace of my home gazing stars. 

6. Want to read Baghvat Gita the day I realize I will understand it 

7. Want to read all Paul chealo books; I want him to live for another 100 years as he is an angle for me. 

8. Want to get up a day when I know I don’t have anything to worry about 

9. Walk endlessly in rains till it will drench my soul. 

10. Shower for complete 30 min and listening calmly to multiple persons within me 

11. Moving to a level were looks, designation, money doesn’t matter to me 

12. Living to reach a point when there will be no person who can make me go weak on my knees 

13. Reaching a level when I possess only unconditional love for the people I encounter and no expectations in return

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

RANDOM 1.2.3

We all must have traveled alone by train or by bus
At that time have you ever felt a sequence of thoughts in your mind???
They were always there in your mind but hidden somewhere

When you are in a crowded train or bus you are on your own,
Your thinking process is moving without any disturbance
Even in such noise you don’t feel disturbed a

On Contrary

When you are in a conference room
You feel more chaos
You find it difficult to concentrate
Even slightest noise disturbs you

Purane Shehar

तुम क्यों नये शहर मैं पुराने शहर को ढूंढते हो वह शहर अब यहाँ नहीं बास्ते न बची है वो गलियां जहाँ बेबाक निकल जाते तुम और आवारागर्दी कर ...